#5 late night thoughts?

Okay I think I'm not the only who do this every night before falling asleep. Every night, right before I go to bed i would lie on my bed and think about stuff or reflect about my life~ that's so cliché of me~ 

What got me thinking the most is that, I'm already 25 and yet I think I still haven't got what I want or what I think I deserve~ I'm still single, still struggling with studies and still fighting hard in my career. 

Every year I always thought that I'd find love but still I'm still single! I just don't understand what is the matter with that? Am I that horrible that nobody wants me and they don't even bother to look at me? Well I do admit that I do stay away from people that I know I won't have a chance with, sparing me the possible heartbreak~ I always chickened out! 

Why can't we just try give other people a chance? You never know what would it be like if you never even give them a chance! I guess I should do that too myself~ 

Well, like Charlotte from sex and the city, I still believe in love. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. Maybe I'll find my partner tomorrow, or maybe next year or maybe in 10 years time! Who knows? 

Love will come~ to the one who believed in it~ 

#4 is it me or them?

People keep saying that I'm very choosy when it comes to choosing my boyfriend. I guess I get it cause I've been single for like ages and I only had one real relationship that only lasted for about a year? 

I mean who is not choosy in finding a boyfriend? I mean you are going to spend your life with him/her~ to me if I have a boyfriend, he could potentially be my future husband, of course I'm gonna choose wisely.

After watching like 3 seasons of sex and the city, it suddenly came to me that maybe the reason why I'm still single is because the guys are being choosy also. 

Then that means that I'm just not good enough, that I'm not a good girlfriend material I guess~ that's so disappointing~ Just as when I look at a guy, in my mind I would analyse him and think if he is good enough for me. I guess that goes the same for me when they analyse me.

It's frustrating that I'm still single now because somehow I'm not good enough for them.

I just hope that the day will come for me, that I will find my mr right~ wherever you are~ please find me~ ^^

Anyway, good night~~ 

#3 Dream?

Screw the challenge~

New York, a place that everyone who never been there dreamt to go someday. I too, wished to go there someday. Speaking of traveling, I never thought that I would want to go anywhere. I've always think that home is the best that I don't need to go anywhere. 

Now that I'm in the working world I just don't think I would ever have the chance to travel the world. I think the only chance I may have is if only my future husband somehow is a foreigner or if my future husband is a frequent traveler. Hah! AS IF! 

This year is a busy year for me so I guess thinking about traveling or relationship isn't an option for me now~ I just wish for this year to end quickly and smoothly, please god! 

I do wish for a promotion or another job offered with a higher pay, maybe somehow someday my dream to travel the world or places that I want to go is possible.

A dream is just a dream if you don't make effort. 

It's just a dream now but I'll try to reach for it. 

Xoxo

Don't stop believing!

#2 Inspirations in Life?

I don't know what has gotten into me... I guess partly was that I wanted to improve and upgrade myself, partly was I've observed some things that inspired me into wanting to improve myself...

I guess it's a good thing, wanting to improve.

However, there are times when I think about where I am and what i'm doing with my life now just broke my own spirit...

I want to travel the world, maybe even get the chance to live at other country for at least a month and maybe even to work as a part-timer just so I can experience what it's like.

People who knows me knows where I work and it also means that I don't get much opportunity to travel the world.

I'm gonna take baby steps, I am 25 now but I guess everything gotta start from baby steps....


I shall~~~

My 10 days challenge of 5 Posts #1

Post #1

Juggling with work, studies and dancing all at the same time is not easy~ this just resulted in me neglecting all three! Im already escaping dance classes with the excuse of wanting to do my assignments but yet I'm not really doing my assignments! And I'm working like a zombie now~ I even lost track of time! 

I just wish this year could end fast! I want to focus more on dancing! I want to be a great dancer~ 

Throwback to my dance moment~

 

Self-doubt?

Hey readers, do you guys have like deep thoughts about yourselves, the world and everything around you? Well, I do~ some nights... Before I go to bed... I have some thinking about what I want to do with my life, what I want in my life (that i know I couldn't have) and what's my plan? And I start thinking about how lucky my friends are, that they got to go overseas to study/ work, to experience what's out there whereas me, i'm always here... where I've been all my life~ doing nothing useful.. this just make me feel so helpless and hopeless.. 

I wanted to have the chance to go out and experience what they've experience out there... Get some adventure and challenge in my life! But the thing is... I know that I'm not an independent person.. I tend to depend on people around me~ and this somehow makes me sad too... Knowing that this could be the thing that's stopping me and holding me back! 

What people said are true, that you'll feel lost once you've graduated because you are really on your own now. You can't have people guiding your path for you anymore. You gotta build them yourself~ 

This is the first time that I really write down what I thought about. I don't really do this because I know no matter if I wrote about this or not it won't help me in anyway but just to give myself some sort of relief for expressing my feelings and thoughts~ 

Okay~ enough with this self pity.. Good night~ 

One selfie for this piece~

Studio 23 Presents: Masquerade Dinner and Dance~

On 2nd November 2013, Studio 23 will be presenting... yet another dance event that involve all the dancers of the studio. We had such dinner and dance last year as well but this year, this event is open to the public.

Every year, Studio 23 will have an annual event like a tea party or dinner party for all dancers but only females are allowed as they want to give every dancers a chance to perform on stage and feel comfortable during the performance as no man is allowed during the event.

I can't wait to see new members of the studio, proudly perform their dance for people to see~

Anyway~ I do hope that more people can come to this dinner and dance, so they could see that there are lots of good potential dancers in Kuching. Oh! Please do bring your own mask for the night if you are attending this dinner~

Please do contact the number shown on the picture above for more information.

XOXO~