#5 late night thoughts?

Okay I think I'm not the only who do this every night before falling asleep. Every night, right before I go to bed i would lie on my bed and think about stuff or reflect about my life~ that's so cliché of me~ 

What got me thinking the most is that, I'm already 25 and yet I think I still haven't got what I want or what I think I deserve~ I'm still single, still struggling with studies and still fighting hard in my career. 

Every year I always thought that I'd find love but still I'm still single! I just don't understand what is the matter with that? Am I that horrible that nobody wants me and they don't even bother to look at me? Well I do admit that I do stay away from people that I know I won't have a chance with, sparing me the possible heartbreak~ I always chickened out! 

Why can't we just try give other people a chance? You never know what would it be like if you never even give them a chance! I guess I should do that too myself~ 

Well, like Charlotte from sex and the city, I still believe in love. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. Maybe I'll find my partner tomorrow, or maybe next year or maybe in 10 years time! Who knows? 

Love will come~ to the one who believed in it~ 

#4 is it me or them?

People keep saying that I'm very choosy when it comes to choosing my boyfriend. I guess I get it cause I've been single for like ages and I only had one real relationship that only lasted for about a year? 

I mean who is not choosy in finding a boyfriend? I mean you are going to spend your life with him/her~ to me if I have a boyfriend, he could potentially be my future husband, of course I'm gonna choose wisely.

After watching like 3 seasons of sex and the city, it suddenly came to me that maybe the reason why I'm still single is because the guys are being choosy also. 

Then that means that I'm just not good enough, that I'm not a good girlfriend material I guess~ that's so disappointing~ Just as when I look at a guy, in my mind I would analyse him and think if he is good enough for me. I guess that goes the same for me when they analyse me.

It's frustrating that I'm still single now because somehow I'm not good enough for them.

I just hope that the day will come for me, that I will find my mr right~ wherever you are~ please find me~ ^^

Anyway, good night~~