#5 late night thoughts?

Okay I think I'm not the only who do this every night before falling asleep. Every night, right before I go to bed i would lie on my bed and think about stuff or reflect about my life~ that's so cliché of me~ 

What got me thinking the most is that, I'm already 25 and yet I think I still haven't got what I want or what I think I deserve~ I'm still single, still struggling with studies and still fighting hard in my career. 

Every year I always thought that I'd find love but still I'm still single! I just don't understand what is the matter with that? Am I that horrible that nobody wants me and they don't even bother to look at me? Well I do admit that I do stay away from people that I know I won't have a chance with, sparing me the possible heartbreak~ I always chickened out! 

Why can't we just try give other people a chance? You never know what would it be like if you never even give them a chance! I guess I should do that too myself~ 

Well, like Charlotte from sex and the city, I still believe in love. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. Maybe I'll find my partner tomorrow, or maybe next year or maybe in 10 years time! Who knows? 

Love will come~ to the one who believed in it~ 

#4 is it me or them?

People keep saying that I'm very choosy when it comes to choosing my boyfriend. I guess I get it cause I've been single for like ages and I only had one real relationship that only lasted for about a year? 

I mean who is not choosy in finding a boyfriend? I mean you are going to spend your life with him/her~ to me if I have a boyfriend, he could potentially be my future husband, of course I'm gonna choose wisely.

After watching like 3 seasons of sex and the city, it suddenly came to me that maybe the reason why I'm still single is because the guys are being choosy also. 

Then that means that I'm just not good enough, that I'm not a good girlfriend material I guess~ that's so disappointing~ Just as when I look at a guy, in my mind I would analyse him and think if he is good enough for me. I guess that goes the same for me when they analyse me.

It's frustrating that I'm still single now because somehow I'm not good enough for them.

I just hope that the day will come for me, that I will find my mr right~ wherever you are~ please find me~ ^^

Anyway, good night~~ 

#3 Dream?

Screw the challenge~

New York, a place that everyone who never been there dreamt to go someday. I too, wished to go there someday. Speaking of traveling, I never thought that I would want to go anywhere. I've always think that home is the best that I don't need to go anywhere. 

Now that I'm in the working world I just don't think I would ever have the chance to travel the world. I think the only chance I may have is if only my future husband somehow is a foreigner or if my future husband is a frequent traveler. Hah! AS IF! 

This year is a busy year for me so I guess thinking about traveling or relationship isn't an option for me now~ I just wish for this year to end quickly and smoothly, please god! 

I do wish for a promotion or another job offered with a higher pay, maybe somehow someday my dream to travel the world or places that I want to go is possible.

A dream is just a dream if you don't make effort. 

It's just a dream now but I'll try to reach for it. 

Xoxo

Don't stop believing!

#2 Inspirations in Life?

I don't know what has gotten into me... I guess partly was that I wanted to improve and upgrade myself, partly was I've observed some things that inspired me into wanting to improve myself...

I guess it's a good thing, wanting to improve.

However, there are times when I think about where I am and what i'm doing with my life now just broke my own spirit...

I want to travel the world, maybe even get the chance to live at other country for at least a month and maybe even to work as a part-timer just so I can experience what it's like.

People who knows me knows where I work and it also means that I don't get much opportunity to travel the world.

I'm gonna take baby steps, I am 25 now but I guess everything gotta start from baby steps....


I shall~~~

My 10 days challenge of 5 Posts #1

Post #1

Juggling with work, studies and dancing all at the same time is not easy~ this just resulted in me neglecting all three! Im already escaping dance classes with the excuse of wanting to do my assignments but yet I'm not really doing my assignments! And I'm working like a zombie now~ I even lost track of time! 

I just wish this year could end fast! I want to focus more on dancing! I want to be a great dancer~ 

Throwback to my dance moment~